It’s My Survival Anniversary: Reflecting on My 3 Years Post-Attack

Hello My Amazing Live Out Louders, Happy Tuesday! While Tuesdays are not a day that I would traditionally share my deep and intimate thoughts with you all, January 15th is a very significant date in my life! And because it is so impactful, I would love to share what this date means to me. Three…

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Dear: Mass Shooting Survivor, From: A Terrorist Attack Survivor

Dear Survivor, I don’t know who you are, but if you’re reading this letter and you have survived the unthinkable, I am sorry. I can relate to the strange feelings that you are having, so I want to share some thoughts with you. My name is La’Nita and I survived a terrorist attack in 2016…

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What a Flashback Feels Like

Hello Live Out Louders, (I think that’s the name I want to give my wonderful blog supporters.) This post is coming to you from Costa Rica, and unfortunately is discussing a topic that I faced last night while on vacation. So buckle up, and get ready to learn about one of the most scary and…

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8 Things NOT To Say To Someone With PTSD

Hello, My Beautiful Readers! After being diagnosed with PTSD, depression and anxiety post-terrorist attack, I have received many interesting questions/statements—most of them which result in an internal side-eye from me 😒 Unfortunately, due to mental health having such a negative stigma in our society, we frequently fail to learn appropriate ways to communicate with those who…

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Why I Still Travel After I Almost Died

Buenos Días Mi Gente! This post is brought to you from Guatemala City, where I will be spending the next ten weeks…well, nine now! Please forgive me for my MONTH-LONG break in not posting…I was preparing to move my life to another country for the summer. But alas, I’m back and I’ve got more amazing…

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10 Weird Things That Crossed My Mind During My Terrorist Attack

Howdy Y’all, Ever wondered what people are thinking in their potential last moments? Well, I can’t speak for EVERYONE, but I can tell you, I had some truly bizarre thoughts cross my mind.  When you’re body goes into the fight or flight state, it only focuses on the basic functions to keep you alive. However, as…

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I Shouldn’t Have to Think about Surviving Another Mass Shooting

Most nights, I dream of someone trying to kill me. Morbid, I know, but I blame the PTSD. Honestly, one of the worst symptoms of PTSD (for me) is the nightmares. The dreams feel so real; so vivid—it’s as if I am experiencing the scene at that moment. Sometimes I wake up sweating; other nights I…

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